Dear Mr. Right

Dear Mr. Right,

Although it may seem unfair that we have still yet to probably even lay eyes on each other, I promise you that we are just still not ready to meet each other yet. As much as I want to rush this process and experience life with you immediately, I can’t. I can’t risk searching for you now, only to be overlooked by you when I am still not the woman not even ready to love herself. You might not be ready for me to accept you just yet either, so don’t you try to hunt me down.

Instead, I want us to each just be perfectly content with who we are as individuals firmly rooted in Christ. And perhaps, one day, you’ll randomly catch a glimpse of me and let the Lord lead you after that. Please be rather persistent with me, for it will be difficult for me to once again become vulnerable for another.

But with you it will be different. You, will be forever eternally grateful that I took that chance with you…by proving yourself to me every day that you will never abandon me and leave me bleeding. I at times may wonder why you’re taking a chance on me too, but your constant and steadfast love for me will one day forever quench that flame of doubt. For the first time, I will be able to have a tangible example of just how much Christ loves and pursues me as His bride…without ceasing.

You’ll look at me and, just as with Christ, I’ll be it. I will always be enough, and I will never have to prove myself of that to you. You will always know this, and on the days that I might start to forget this about myself, you will be quick to remind me of God’s truth about what He says about me. Together, we will bring Him both glory and joy by being two souls of the same mind, of the same love, being in full accord one with another. Until then, keep being you and I’ll keep being me.

Love, His Daughter

Who Holds Tomorrow

If you are a friend or family member of mine, you are very well familiar with the fact that I have just recently graduated from college. But, what you may not know, is that I never made up my mind about what I was gonna do after that. My decision to come to OU? It was the closest college from home. My major? The subject that I most excelled in. I just figured that I would eventually “have my life figured out one of these days.” What others call, a plan. 

In my past life shrouded in mourning and a severely anxious spirit, I had to lean on God like never before for both His comfort and His peace to envelope me in such a way that they one day became mine too. Now, I find myself leaning heavily on Him again. But this time, to be reminded both of His provision and the fact that He has a plan for me.

God knows of our every need…and our heavenly Father knows that we need them all (Matthew 6:32). God eagerly yearns for each and every one of His children to meet Him half way and turn to Him. Seek the Lord (Psalms 34:10)…walk uprightly (Psalm 84:11)…and we shall lack no good thing…neither will it be withheld from us…

But how do we determine something as a “good” thing? Does it become good by us just wishing it for it to be so? Because we want it to be? Many things that are in fact inherently “good” can quickly become a problem once we treat them like they are more important or more necessary than the One who actually created all of these things. I constantly have to keep myself in check when it comes to this all too familiar scenario. There is absolutely nothing wrong with wanting things like a good job, a home, or a significant other…but these desires can and will hinder your relationship with God if you place them above Him in importance and pay homage to them like your own golden calf.

God is literally our everything. He who did not spare His own Son, but gave Him up for us all…how could this same Father not also graciously give us all things (Romans 8:32)? Many blessings are bestowed upon us just simply by being who we are: God’s children. Good things can and will happen to good people all the time, even if they have yet to realize and accept who their Father actually is. For other blessings to be freely given, however, one must ask. Ask in prayer…with thanksgiving…with faith(Matthew 21:22)…all the while asking in his name, and He will deliver (John 14:14). Ask, and it will be given to you. Seek, and you will find. Knock, and it will be opened to you (Matthew 7:7). God rewards those that seek Him…and those that seek Him must believe that who they are seeking actually exists (Hebrews 11:6). Abide not only in Him, but in His word (John 15:7). Sometimes the only reason we do not have is because we do not ask (James 4:2). Keep His commandments and live your striving to please Him, and He will strive to please you (1 John 3:22).

In life, it is often extremely easy for us to start stressing out about our wants and needs that have yet to be met. We stress out so much that we at times completely forget that we are already being protected and provided for. I often have to remind myself of this, and rest in this truth. I think that I’m all grown up, but sometimes if I don’t get what I want just when I want it…I quickly I lose faith. I can either beat myself up over this fact, or I can choose to be thankful. Every time I do lack faith in a certain area of my life, I both know and yearn to turn to God for help and not other things every single time I am reminded that I, being the mere mortal that I am, will always fall short. I may not always know what tomorrow holds, but I do know who holds tomorrow.